So, this is my first time blogging, but second time in Armenia. Anyway, last year I attended this same pilgrimage yet my experiences have been very different. We have been touring most of the same churches and some new ones and it strikes me that I have both the same and different feelings when visiting. About a week ago we visited my favorite church of all, Sanahin. I remembered the ways the trees looked during twilight and the feeling I got when touching the century old stone. But a I don’t remember feeling so comfortable. Visiting the same places more than once gives greater insight and allows for a deeper connection. Its like I had more wisdom the second time around.
Aside from all of the beautiful places the people are wonderful. The group is a bit larger than last year and we get by alright-if we are not a little late. I think it gives the group character.
Anyway my experiences are growing along with my love for this country. I have such strong opposing emotions for Hayastan. I am sad when I walk around sometimes, looking at the people who need help, but I am also upset. (Not all people) but some see us (americans) as targets and not “real armenians.” This challenge takes ample amounts of understanding because in my mind, we are more the same than different.
The trip is coming to an end quickly and I will miss the homeland but I know I will visit again soon.
Natalie Kazarian

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